Maya老師近況

 

親愛的家人

 

有位國外的家人於上週前往探訪Maya老師，知道大家都很關心她的近況，特別將他的探訪與大家分享。感謝家人涵音的協助翻譯，以下是來函的譯文，請參考。

 

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親愛的瑜珈朋友和家人們，

 

我給大家帶來Maya的祝福。今天（星期四）大部分的時間，我都和我們親愛的Maya在一起，沈浸在她的風采裡，覆誦著Maha Mrityunjaya。她原來比較清醒，而且能夠和一個隔鄰的朋友愉快地交談，但當我到達那裡的時候，她又陷入昏沈，大約一個小時都是在昏睡和清醒間游移。她說這些日子以來有些感傷，比起過去，她的心開始難以保持清明和專注。我問她這是否是放下的過程之一，她說也許是吧，但也可能是體內毒素累積的結果。她一直小心謹慎地監管著止痛藥的用量，好讓她能夠在保持清醒和控制疼痛之間找得平衡，但在過去幾個禮拜裡，她已經提高了止痛藥的劑量。她吃得很少，喝得很少，但在那個充滿陽光的秋日，我們談論著我們的母親以及她們對我們在靈性成長上的影響，還有那些特殊的節日裡，用愛心做成的美味享受，她吃著她的午餐，並且微笑著。吃飯並不總是件愉快的事，有時候根本難以下嚥，過去幾個禮拜裡，甚至連打成汁再進食都很難了。我在那裡的時候她並沒有不斷地咳嗽，而她的呼吸也不總是那麼困難（但我確定這和她過去習慣的一定是天差地別），她還是可以自己起身行動而不用別人幫忙。雖然這麼說，大部分的時候她都在床上靠坐著，對她而言，幾近挺直地坐著是最舒適的休息方式。

那個週末，她在慕尼黑的表親將會拜訪她，即使只是個短暫的拜訪，她仍然非常期待，她似乎藉著這樣的期待支撐著自己。現在很明顯地可以看出她比過去要來得疲累。她心裡掛念著還有工作要做，期待著偶爾有幾天狀況較好的時候，她可以整理思緒，寫幾封信，處理一下她心裡惦記的工作，把一切變得較有條理。我提議要幫忙，但即使有人幫忙，這些都要花上比她現在所擁有的更多的體力。我們談起睡眠瑜珈，一起讀她做的一些筆記，然後我把早晚的禱詞以及2010~2013年指定功課的Gayatri咒放在一個資料夾裡。她很高興有這些東西在身邊，透過閱讀她的心思可以較為專注。這段時間她感到有些喪氣，再加上她現在沒有能力去做她在這一生中希望做的事。她一直在病痛中，但她從來不抱怨。這些日子以來，她的心不像過去一般清明（即使別人看不出來），總使她感到沮喪，但她還是比大多數人所嚮往的還要來得有覺知，要來得體貼，而且對她的周遭及其以外的世界的掛念和愛是這麼的慷慨。即使面臨著這樣的挑戰，她仍然激勵著人們，與人分享她的智慧。

我鼓勵大家在每天的練習與生活中，為Maya獻上一段梵咒或祈禱。Maha Mrityunjaya(療癒和轉化之用)以及Gayatri（心靈平和）對她都會是莫大的幫助。請將這封信傳送給任何與Maya有關並且想知道她的最新消息的人。

 

帶著愛、平和與祝福

Keely

 

以下為原信函內容：

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Dear Yoga friends and family,

Sending you all blessings from Maya. I spent the better part of the day (Thursday) sitting with our dear Maya, basking in her presence and repeating the Maha Mrityunjaya. She was able to become a bit clearer and engage in a lovely chat with a neighbour friend, but when I arrived she was cloudy and drifting in and out of sleeping and waking for an hour or so. She said these days have been a bit mushy, her mind is having a more difficult time holding clarity and focus then she is used to. I asked her if it was perhaps part of the process of letting go, she said that maybe yes, but that also it could be toxicity build up in the body. She has been carefully and mindfully noticing and monitoring what amounts of pain medication is necessary to allow her to remain as present as she can be while still striking a balance of managing her pain, but in the last few weeks she has increased her dosages. She is eating very small amounts, and drinking very little, but on that sunny fall day together we chatted about our mothers and how much influence they had on our spiritual development and all the old ways and delicious treats that were made for special occasions and with love, and she was eating her lunch and smiling. The food does not always go down so pleasantly, and it makes it difficult to take it in all the time, even juicing has fallen to the wayside over the past few weeks. She did not cough the entire time I was there, and her breathing is not noticeably laboured (although I am sure she is modifying dramatically from what would be normal for her), and she is still able to get up and move around without help, as she needs to. That said, she spends most of her time resting in her bed, supported. Sitting almost upright is the most comfortable way for her to be at rest.

has had a visit from her dear cousin from Munich this last weekend that she was looking very forward to even though it was a quick trip, and she seemed to have been bolstering herself in anticipation of it. She is now visibly more tired and further away than she has been. Although in her mind there is still much work to do, she is hoping for better days here and there that she could organize her thoughts and write a letter or two, and get to some of her work that is weighing on her mind and but it together in a more organized way. I have offered her the help she might need to do these things, but it seems that it all takes a bit more energy than she would have at present, even with ones help. We talked about Yoga Nidra and looked at some of her notes together, and I put together a little folder of the Prayers (Morning and Evening) and the extended Gayatri for the special practices 2010-13), tyukta and Maha Mrityunjaya mantras.  She was grateful to have them near to her, to read and keep her mind more connected and focused that way. She was feeling very discouraged by this time she has, paralleled by her current lack of capacity to do some of the work she would like to do in this lifetime. She is in quite a lot of pain, but of course she does not complain. Although her mind is a source of frustration for her these days, being not as clear as she is used to, (not that anyone else would notice) she is still considerably more aware and conscious than most of the population even aspires to be, as well as considerate and generous with her thoughts and love for all in her immediate circle and beyond. She continues to inspire and share gems of wisdom, despite the challenges she is facing.

I would encourage you all to include some mantra an or prayers for Maya in your daily practice and as you go about your day. Both the Maha Mrityunjaya (for healing and transition) and the Gayatri (for peace of mind) would be of great benefit to her. Please feel free to forward this to as many people as would like who are connected to Maya, and would appreciate a little update.

Warmly and with much Love, Peace, and blessings to you all,
Keely